7.11.17

Laser Eye Surgery - What Really Happens.


Just over a week ago, I underwent Laser Eye Surgery with Optical Express. It was a decision I made after much consideration and lots of umming and ahhing. 

In the lead up to my surgery, I obviously googled the hell out the procedure (this has its positives and its negatives), lots of people were keen to share stories they'd heard, urban myths regarding the surgery and everyone told me I was super brave for doing it. I was nervous and worried how the day would pan out, how I would react to having my eye "sliced open" and how I would feel afterward.

I'm guessing a lot of people have the same concerns as I did, SO I thought I'd write a post talking you through the entire day, explaining the ins and outs and all the "gory" details they might not tell you in the fancy pamphlets. 

*Please note, this post is written from my perspective and details are relevant to my personal experience/ type of surgery I underwent and lifestyle. You will have to discuss your options with your Surgeon and research relevant details regarding Laser Eye Surgery. (I recommend the Optical Express Youtube site for heaps of useful information) 


Surgery Preparation

In the lead up to the surgery, depending on the surgery you have, if you are a lenses wearer etc; you will have a few things you need to do to make sure you are ready for the surgery.

Here's what I had to do in the lead up to surgery...

1) I stopped wearing contacts for 10 days prior to surgery - this was difficult as I loved wearing lenses on special occasions and preferred wearing my glasses for day to day life BUT I managed and it made me even more excited about finally getting my eyes "done".

2) I stopped wearing eye makeup for two days before the surgery - this wasn't great if I'm honest with you. I love my eye makeup, hell, I LOVE ALL MAKEUP so it was tricky going cold turkey and having to go to a few events/jobs without my "face on" but ya gotta do what ya gotta do, and I wasn't about to go against my Surgeons advice.

3) I made sure I had someone (I obviously chose Mummy V) to come with me on the day so that they could a) hold my hand in the waiting room and b) guide me home afterward. You aren't allowed to drive after your surgery, so bear that in mind. You also have to go back the following day for a check-up, so if you live far from your place of surgery; you might want to consider staying overnight near by. Mummy was my perfect chaperone, and if you're reading this (which I know you are) - thank you, love you xx.


4) Made sure I read EVERYTHING Optical Express gave to me in my little information pack. I wanted to make sure I was totally in the know and I ended up reading everything a million times because my Fibromyalgia makes me anxious and before undergoing things like surgery, the more I know, the more I feel reassured and can focus on looking after myself/keeping my chronic pain to a minimum.

5) This isn't essential BUT it made total sense to me ahaha...I bought myself a new, fabulous pair of cheapo sunglasses (thankfully they are all on sale currently) as they advise you to bring along a pair, as your little old eyes will be feeling sensitive post surgery. *Please note, you dont have to buy new sunnies...I'm just extra and addicted to shopping sooooooo.

6) Do not get your nails done in the run-up to surgery...this includes false nails/nail varnish. You aren't allowed to wear nail varnish for your surgery and I just want to give you a heads up, as it'd be such a waste of money getting fresh nails done and then having to take them off the day before/day of surgery!



The Day of your Procedure.

I was first on the list (I chose to have it done at the Shaftesbury Avenue branch in London) and this meant an early start for Mum and I.

Here's what I had to do on the day of my surgery...

Pre-treatment

1) I had to eat normally before going in and make sure a had a sweet cup of tea to wake me up.

2) I washed my face as normal BUT wasn't allowed to wear any face cream/moisturiser/eye cream. My face felt dry, I'm not going to lie haha.

3) I wore a cotton top and a loose skirt as they advise you to wear comfy clothes and the advise you against wearing sweaters or any materials that are made from loose fibers.

4) I didn't wear any perfume - I actually don't know why I wasn't allowed to but the rules said so, so I followed suit!

5) I made sure we got there in plenty of time. This is something that is obvious but for those of you reading this with chronic pain, it makes sense. More time to chill when you're there, get your thoughts together and have some water/tea whilst you're waiting.

6) I took all my consent documents to reception and signed all the relevant parts. I made sure I had thoroughly read through everything before signing my life away!

7) I underwent some repeat tests in order for them to check my suitability for treatment and to check the treatment I was about to undergo was the right one (there are a few variations of Laser Eye Surgery). These were the same tests I had had in one of my initial consultations and nothing to be scared about. I was then taken back into the waiting room so I could sit with Mum.

8) I met my Surgeon, pre-treatment and this was really, really assuring. He made me feel at ease, we had a little joke around and he settled my nerves. I was able to ask him anything else regarding the surgery and to double triple check a few concerns.

9) I was then shown into the laser suite - where a lovely Nurse explained the procedure to me and prepared my eyes for surgery. The Nurse dropped anesthetic drops into my eyes and this completely numbed my eyes... ready for surgery.

10) I met a Surgical Team Associate - who again, made me feel at ease, reviewed my care notes, eye drops and ensured all my final questions had been answered.

The treatment procedure

1) I was taken into the treatment room - The nurses checked my details (D.O.B etc) ran through the procedure with me and I was able to ask any last minute questions. I was asked to lie down on the treatment bed and my head was lightly secured in a molded rest. My head wasn't clapped to anything, it didn't feel invasive and the only thing that was uncomfortable was having to lie flat on my back with no pillow (again, for people with chronic pain, this is something to factor in)

2) The Surgeon will then place a little clear, eyelid holder over your eye. This is what keeps your eye open and prevents you from blinking. There are no scary clamps, your eyes are very gently held open and it doesn't feel too invasive at all! The natural sensation to blink is almost totally eliminated by the anesthetic drops previously dropped into your eyes.

3) Time for treatment! - I underwent LASIK surgery and here's what happened...
Firstly, they need to produce the "LASIK flap". A little ring is placed on the eye (which helps keep the eye in position) and this is where you feel some pressure. NO PAIN, just pressure. The pressure increases slightly and then your vision appears pretty dark...black I'd say. This happens for about 20 seconds. This part is slightly odd as you know it's light in the room but everything is pretty dark. The pressure increases slightly on the eye and then a little vibration almost, for approx 4-5 seconds. NO PAIN. Your vision then returns and you are able to see a blurry red light. The Surgeon at this point has created the corneal flap. Each eye took approx 12 seconds to laser. An eye tracking system is then activated and this allows the laser to follow even the slightest eye movement during the laser treatment.

You are moved gently to a second laser, called the Excimer Laser and each eye is then treated again approx 10 seconds per eye. During this treatment, the laser produces a loud clicking noise, almost like the noise a taser makes and you also smell some pretty funky smells coming from the machine. These are the gases from the laser I am told.

You are able to breathe normally throughout the entire procedure and the nurse had to keep telling me to do so! Your natural reaction is to hold your breath so it was really reassuring to hear that your breathing isn't compromised.

The surgeon/nurses drip some drops into your eyes, release the ring holding your eye open and you're ready to go to the rest area!

I could tell instantly that I could see BUT your vision is really cloudy, you can see where you're going but things are blurry. I was looking round the room excitedly but I also didnt want to strain my eyes and you are told to rest them immediatly after the treatment so I was keen to do as I was told!

Treatment time - approx 15 mins in total and NO PAIN.

Post treatment

1) You are taken to the rest area ( a dark, quiet room) - time to sit with your eyes closed and time to relax! Mum came to see me and she wanted to know everything that had gone on.

2) You are left to rest for 15-30mins and even though your eyes do not hurt, they do feel slightly irritated and they are definitely light sensitive. You are given goggles to wear and they have dark lenses which make looking around, a lot easier.

3) The Surgeon comes to check on you, checks your eyes with a microscope and checks everything is a-ok. My surgeon put some more anesthetic drops in my eyes and then I went back into the rest area.
A Nurse then came and talked through my aftercare with me, showed me the drops I would need to use for a week after and I was able to ask any final questions. I was told I was not allowed to wear makeup for a week and seeing as I love wearing makeup, I was a little worried how I'd get on cosidering I had a trip to Manchester, gigs, work and social things to attend. I was told I couldn't wash my face for a week and I was told I would have to wear my goggles at night for a week - to stop me from rubbing my eyes in my sleep (no eye rubbing for a week!)

4) You are discharged, given your aftercare leaflets and off Mum and I went! We took a cab home and I sat with my eyes closed, sunnies on, drifting in and out of sleep.

5) Throughout the day - you are advised to keep your eyes closed and you are not able to read, look at the tv, look at your phone, drive etc. As the anesthetic drops wore off, you do notice a slightly gritty feeling in your eyes and they do feel tender. Your vision is blurry like there's a mist over your eyes and I did have a tension headache for the remainder of the day BUT nothing too dramatic and nothing to worry about. Your eyes are also a little bloodshot (my right eye a little more than the left) but this is all totally normal. I took paracetamol throughout the day, my Mum helped me put my drops in and I just lay on the sofa snoozing and listening to the tv.



The Day After

1) I woke - still feeling a little hazy/cloudy but my vision was returning to normal and I could tell that my sight had changed forever! My eyes were a little more bloodshot compared to the previous day but I assume this is just like bruising, it gets worse before it gets better.

2) Time for your Post-Operative Appointment - Shades on (you have to wear your sunglasses/goggles out and about and this is advised as your eyes are super sensitive) and Mum and I headed back to Optical Express. The staff were sooooo friendly, welcomed me back, kept on asking how I was etc and one of the staff checked my eyes, checked my vision and gave me the all clear!

I had to read from a chart which had three lines of letters on. If you can read the first line clearly, you have 20/20 vision and if you can read any of the lines below, you have better than 20/20 vision. I could read all three lines (the last row not so clearly) so, it appears I have better than 20/20 vision! Hurrayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!



Photography by JKGPhotography 

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1. Jumpsuit - similar here | 2. Red Boots - similar here | 3. Belt  | 4. Red Lipstick 

I can't quite believe I've had Laser Eye Surgery, to be honest! I know I am pretty extra and love to exaggerate things BUT I do feel like my life has completely changed! Fingers crossed for the better!

Stay tuned for my final post where I tell you:

  • What I can do now I've had surgery.
  • If I would recommend undergoing Laser Eye Surgery
  • If my dealings with Optical Express has changed my view on Laser Eye Surgery
  • What I have experienced post-surgery i.e how my eyes are, how my vision is etc
  • What my follow up appointments/care has been like.

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1.11.17

The importance of dressing for yourself, and no one else.


The way we dress is an extension of our personality, an extension of ourselves. I don't care if being obsessed with how I dress or being infatuated with clothes, is seen as shallow or frivolous. Nothing makes me happier than putting together an absolute belter of an outfit and walking out the house, knowing I've dressed totally for myself. 

When I'm wearing something that I love, I feel invincible. I feel like I can take on a daunting situation with a lot more confidence, I feel like I can stand out amongst the crowd and I feel like even amongst my skinnier compadres; I can hold my own (if not look better than anyyyy of them hahaha) 

Having self-esteem is soooo valuable. Knowing your worthbelieving in yourself (and your fashion choices) and talking to yourself in a non-critical way is really important. Telling yourself that 'you're too fat to wear that short skirt' or 'you're not "trendy" enough to wear that puffa jacket' are examples of talking yourself down and each time you tell yourself you're not worthy, you'll chip away at your esteem and you're letting everyone else out there, win. You are worthy, you bloody well CAN wear what you want and I'm here today to remind you of that!

Whether you're reading this and you're 16 or 56; please have some self-belief and listen to that voice inside your head that's telling you to grab the vinyl mini skirt or those banging, thigh high boots.





Part of my job as a blogger is to show you all that it's ok to be you, it's ok to make "wild" fashion choices and it's ok to experiment and have fun! Fashion is fast becoming a lot more accessible for those of us who are plus size so... embrace it. Look at blogs, the runways, editorial spreads and get inspired! Find an outfit you LOVE and make it your mission to make it work for your body type/size. 






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1. *Puffa Coat also available in main range | 2. White T-Shirt - I am wearing a size 18| 3. *Ripped Jeans | 4. Handbag | 5. *Trainers -similar here | 6. Earrings 







Photographs by JKGPhotography 

Every time I put together an outfit, like the one in this post, I do it for myself. I dress differently each day, depending on my mood and depending on where I'll be going. Stop putting limitations on yourself and stop thinking you're not allowed/trendy enough/thin enough to wear what you really want.

Do you, Honey!
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28.10.17

Need Fuller Figured Lingerie? Look No Further.



Hands up if you have ever personally felt victimised by the lack of attractive, stylish and dare I say it, sexy lingerie for those of us with big boobs? What about undies?... if you're plus size, you're alright if you like high waisted bottoms but what about those of us who want to flash a bit more flesh?

The variety of fashionable, statement undies for those of us who are fuller figured has in recent years begun to improve but I remember a time when I would squish my 38Gs into a bra that clearly didn't fit; just because there weren't the styles I wanted, available. 

A brand that has taken notable steps in trying to change the world of fuller figured lingerie is, Elomi. Elomi, in my opinion, has mastered the balance between sexy and wearable, very well. They offer great undies for those of us with more than a handful and in amongst the classic "staple" pieces, you can find sexy, bold bra's and knickers that stand out from the rest. Elomi has a great range of back sizes which I think is realllllly important, seeing as there aren't enough brands that cater for this. They also do the smaller back sizes but with bigger cups and I think this is great as we all deserve a set or five of beautiful undies!




This bra is seriously fierce, fiery and fashionable! The print is amazing! It's daring and bright and everything that other brands tend to shy away from. The three-section cup offers forward shaping, uplift and support and that's everything a fuller busted girl needs! As with the Bijou Flirt (all black set), this bra deserves to be seen so have a look in your wardrobe and start to imagine ways of wearing these types of bras on show!










This bra is matte black, with a smooth molded cup perfect for wearing hidden under your clothes or making a statement and wearing with a top/dress so that the amazing strapping detail is visible. I would wear this with a plunging neckline so the straps show, or under a cut out top. When lingerie is this beautiful, it deserves to be seen!

I can't get enough of the thick, yet uber comfortable bra straps, the wide back band and the attention to detail of this bra. I feel really well supported without it feeling frumpy or too restrictive. The set includes matching strappy briefs and I like that even though they are relatively high rise, the strapping makes them feel like they're little more daring. I LIVE in high waisted, full briefs... it's so nice to have a change!



A note about confidence 

Lots of people email me and ask me how I get my confidence. The truth is, you can't just acquire it overnight. You have to learn to love your body or even to simply just not hate, this is equally as important. You can't just swallow a pill and one day wake up and be over the moon with the body you've been given. It takes a lot of self-love, talking kindly to yourself about your body and understanding that none of us are meant to be perfect. It's important to not shame our own bodies as well as others.

I'm not going to lie...

I was rather apprehensive about doing these photos as I haven't been semi-naked online in ages, and posing for a bikini pic on holiday is one thing but getting it alllllll out in your bedroom in front of a photographer is another thing! I sent Jade (my photographer) a text before the shoot stressing that my stray bikini hairs would be visible, that my eczema is really bad at the moment, that my skin between my thighs is all blotchy...it was like I was pre-empting that these were the ONLY things I would notice, looking at the pictures of me. The truth is, I don't notice any of those things when I look at these images. I see a fat, beautiful, individual woman with a cracking set of tits and a soft, round belly that beats any memory foam pillow and that just because I have more fat on my body compared to someone else; it doesn't mean I don't deserve to feel incredible in nice lingerie!



Shop My Lingerie

1. Nicole Set (red and black)  / 2. Bijou Flirt (black)


If you think it's time to update your lingerie drawer, take a peek at Elomi's site and give their undies a try. You can find them online and instore and let me know in the comments below if you've tried this brand and what you think of their underwear!


*This post is sponsored by Wacoal but as ever, all opinions and words are my own. 

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27.10.17

How To Rock A Bare Shoulder this Autumn.



Guys, it's unreasonably hot at the moment, we are coming to the end of October and I just need this warm, muggy weather to come to an end! I'm far too eager to wear roll necks, chunky knits and faux fur coats BUT with the weather; it'll be a while till we reach for those I think. 

With that in mind, it's my chance to still get some wear out of my summer wardrobe and what better way to do it than by styling up an off the shoulder top.

I first got into off-the-shoulder tops at the start of the summer and wore one whilst on a holiday to Greece. It's not a style I would have previously gravitated towards but there's something seriously elegant and sexy about baring a shoulder, who agrees? I feel like the bare shoulder trend (apart from cold shoulder's) is a trend we should carry on into Autumn and here's how...




Pick a long sleeve - this is pretty obvious but a long sleeve top will keep you warm when it starts to get chilly and wearing an off the shoulder top in Autumn; won't feel so weird.

Team with a long skirt - your shoulder might be out but to counter balance the bare shoulder, wear a longline/maxi skirt and under the skirt you can even wear tights if you want to.

Throw on a jacket - In typical blogger style, throw a jacket on over the shoulders (because it's obviously not cool to actually wear a jacket haha)

Earthy colour palettes - summer is all about bright colours, white outfits and vivid lipstick colours. Swap to berry lippy shades, mustards and good old dark, earthy shades like blacks, greys, greens and browns...yum!





1. Top - available in store | 2. Maxi Skirt - similar here | 3. Trainers | 4. Handbag | 5. Biker Jacket - similar here | 6. Earrings - similar here



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